This email came and was at first what I expected in terms of an opinion expressed from a range of opinions I would get. When I took a closer look I realized that something minute was stood out. The email discussed various things including her opinion and was helpful in correcting my spelling. It talked about insecurities I might have in relation to my peers and seemed angry, defensive and in itself slightly insecure, but I was ready to ignore it. Then I read the name it was signed under and the IM name at the upper righthand corner of the email.

After chuckling a little I did a quick google search for Landscape Architects and the name given on the email. I found nothing. I then did a search for the name and UCONN and found the name on a roster of mid semester graduates and found someone from Norwich, Ct on that list. On that same list were the names of some of my classmates who had late graduations for whatever reasons of their own. This made me think this was probably more than a coincidence especially as there is only one person who I have ever heard speak in the way the letter was written and they were a member of my class (I won't name them right now). To see the list click here.

In terms of insecurities with regards to my work and any classmates I have no problem admitting that my work tended to fall in the middle of the class in terms of the best or worst designs on an average. In fact I have no problem admitting that some of the names of my peers on that mid semester graduation list were consistently better than me and I was at times a little envious of their work and usually an admirer of their work and their abilities. I'll go even further to say if I'm right about the person on whose behalf I think the email was sent that person was consistently better than me and I would have to admit is a better designer than myself.

If the letter was an attempt to stop me obviously it didn't work. If the insecurity you are attempting to refer to is something other than design related I would offer some advice. The insinuation you made is expressed in such a way that you feel I should know to what you refer. At UCONN they tried all kinds of ways to get me to quit, flunk out or get kicked out and needless to say they all failed. Also you feel it might stop me or scare me. Well I obviously am not stopping so the letter failed there. As to whether any of my insecurities might make me scared, angry, sad or any other emotion enough to stop me from seeking justice, putting the truth out there or keeping this web site online and constantly updated there is only one way to find out.

In fact I offer you this option. Put up a web site, youtube post, myspace or facebook link with what you feel will scare me or whatever. If it is something real I'll link to it from this page (I promise). That way people can see your argument, image or whatever it is. It will help me to connect dots and other research I need to do. It won't stop me but I wish you luck. Don't let me call your bluff. Do it. In the end I suspect the only thing you'll regret about the email is that it was anything but anonymous.